Go F Yourself Foobs!

Hello my friends! It’s been a minute, hasn’t it? I’m blogging from a darkish/panicked place so please indulge me…(I’ll post some kiddos pics below for proof of life!)

So in yet another wonderful turn of events – there’s been a worldwide recall on the implants I’ve had in my body for 6 years. Yep, the FDA and the implant manufacturer finally are recognizing the statistics that we’ve all been hearing about for years. Women are getting lymphoma due to their textured implants. For a long time, the US refused to link causation to the implants (while Europe did). The chances of this happening are actually quite slim – but anything over 0 is too much for me.

Feel free to read up more on it HERE. Here’s the spot Good Morning America did on it.

What’s super messed up is that most folks who have these implants and spacers are breast cancer patients/survivors. We’re not talking about the general population who had elective cosmetic surgery. We’re talking about those of us who’ve had reconstructive surgery post cancer.

A year and a half ago, I’d had some stomach fat lippo’d out and placed on top of my foobs to fill in the weird plastic gaps that were visible to the naked eye. Vein? Yes 100% and I won’t apologize for it. I was 5 years out, 2 babies out and just feeling good in my skin. I wanted to treat myself and help myself with the body issues I was feeling. So I won’t apologize.

While the surgery went well and the recovery was tough but unremarkable – a few months later I came down with this infection. It has to be attributable to the surgery b/c there’s literally nothing else that could’ve caused it. Sure it’s rare to have an infection 4 months post op — but it’s me we’re talking about – so all bets are off! haha!

No, but in all seriousness, this is exactly what the recall is for. The implants I have – have a textured, bumpy outside shell. Those small divets and bumps are the perfect breeding ground for bacteria to latch onto. During the fat grafting – bacteria was introduced into the pocket. It set up shop and turned into a full blown infection a few months later.

As you know, that particular foob issue was resolved with heavy doses of antibiotics. I didn’t need to remove the implant. Everyone (including me) felt happy about that outcome.

Fast forward to today – I’m feeling a crazy amount of swelling, tightness, thickness and other discomfort with my left (cancer side) foob. Who knows what the genesis may be (PTSD vs. something real?). But the most messed up thing is that I don’t want to know. I don’t want to stop my life and trajectory I’m on for a massive surgery and recovery. I just want to be normal. To feel normal.

But I guess that’s not in the cards for me. So in the coming days/weeks – I’ll reach out to my plastic surgeon and start the discussion of what’s next. I’m pretty sure it’s not lymphoma – but I’m pretty sure my body and mind are rejecting these implants. So I think I need to seriously consider my path if they need to come out.

Tomorrow I’ll call Dr Hong….

Also, if you made it this far in the post – prepare yourself for a reward of kiddo pics! You earned it!

 

7 thoughts on “Go F Yourself Foobs!

  1. Hi My Dear Andrea.. Your children are beautiful!!! I hate your Blog, but we must keep moving forward.
    I wish it were my foobs instead of yours. You are in my heart and prayers. I was happy to know that you and Lisa meet up in CA.
    Love, MK

  2. I can’t believe you are still on this rollercoaster. I hope you find your way through in the fastest, least painful way possible. We are, as always, cheering you on from DC.

  3. Hi Andrea, Actually read your blog some days ago. But, didn’t have any immediate words.
    I noticed your remark about allowing some indulgence to your reaction. All I could think was- you seemed pretty controlled and restrained given the news. But more than that, your words tell you are finding a way through with a lot of thoughtful considerations. And it feels like an underlying strength and resolute determination.
    I can’t help thinking that maybe other women facing the same situation might be buoyed a little to hear another voice.
    With warm thoughts. Love and hugs to all.

  4. Hello!
    I came across your blog when googling “hair regrowth during Taxol” I know googling can be the worst thing. But sometimes you need to find out that someone else has gone through what your going through. Anyway, I was also excited to see that your in the Bay Area, as am I.
    I hope your doing well and that you get some answers soon. I just had my mastectomy in April. I didn’t have reconstruction because I was already scared, then my surgeon mentioned the darn lymphoma bit. I said, no thanks! It’s tough. But so is everything.
    Your kids are adorable! Mine just turned 1 year old and 5 years old.
    Thank you for writing your blog 🙂

    • Heather! Thank you for the note – it reminded me that I need to do an update post on what’s going on, so thank you! Stay tuned for more info and I’m so glad you found the blog and are weathering the storm that is your treatment. This is a crazy ride to be on – but I guess we all make the best of it once we’re buckled in, right?!?! xoxox

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